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OK, an entire year without sex...This is Driving me spare.
I figure that my problem is masking my urge to jus have sex with a woman opposed to seeming to be...or in fact, actually be Interested in them as a person.
Some people I Am interested in, in both contexts, and get taken the wrong way, and end up with new friends instead of the intended shag. This is all well and good, as the world would be cold if it weren't for friends. But I really wanna meet someone i get on with... and can have sex with too!
Why does the world plot against me? Why can i never think of anything to say to someone i wanna shag? Why do i struggle to get on with people unless i'm introduced first... WHAT IS MY MAJOR MALFUNCTION!
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Hmph, what did I do wrong.
I'm confused, eager as ever one min, and suddenly ditched like a drunk drivers car.
well within a week my self has gone from it's peak back down to the bottom where it belongs.
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| Subject: | Yea Gods |
| Time: | 12:58 am. |
| Mood: |  happy. | | Music: | White Rose Movement - girls in the back. |
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Ok Ok to those that may be interested, and haven't read it elsewhere already, I've been on a date... and it went well, this i know, as we've been chatting since... it's been Soooo long, my self esteem has skyrocketed, and well declaring it though i may be... I'm fully happy for the first time in Soooooo long!
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| Subject: | *sigh* |
| Time: | 12:07 am. |
| Mood: |  depressed. | | Music: | TSM - everyone else has had more sex than me. |
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ach, thats all i have to say. ach, whats wrong with me?
ach
graargh and ach
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Thursday, February 9th, 2006
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Not been a good start to the day, spent most of it swearing profusely at the sheer ineptitude of my computer to do anything right at all today, i have nothing to do, well nothing i want to do, So i'm bored, i really need to go buy food but i can't be assed, and all the games i want to play are far to expensive... Gagh i'm dull, so much so in fact i bore myself. well whingy rant over ttfn
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Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
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Ok, this is the first time since i've been back in the civilized world that I've been up before 10,
Why so lazy i hear no-one ask... Buggered if i know.
I guess it's my subconscious getting revenge for 3 weeks of 6am.
bastard Subconscious, feeling abated in this weather...
Now I'm Awake and cold..
Bugger.
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Monday, January 16th, 2006
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god damnit.. i thought i'd exersize in the mornings..
i think i overdid my first few sessions,
I do believe i have a hernia...
Cold food is good, especially when it's really good hot.
Really should sleep, but feel like blathering more.
I'll start the Posters soon, honest.
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Thursday, January 12th, 2006
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| Subject: | Work |
| Time: | 9:27 pm. |
| Mood: |  lethargic. | | Music: | Bassline- no clue. |
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So now I have a job...Glee, but
10 rentals a week,
i can't watch a film without munch it's impossible,
By my calculation by February I'll be aproximately one metric tonne
I may join the Gym... i did say i would
But the effort...Gaaagh
Damn lethargy,
Can't be assed to fight it
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Sunday, January 8th, 2006
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Just got back into town yesterday, not oo shoddy a day, got a job within the first 2 hours of being in town and watched the 3 most cheesy films ever over about half a bottle of Rum and a lot of chinese takeaway. I swear the colours and so bright here...and everything is generally hazy, but then that may just be my back...
I Walked a mile (i know not far) with a load sufficient enough to snap the strap of my bag, and leave real nice red marks around my shoulders, i got to london and i swear my neck is longer, i keep getting the feeling I'm falling, must be a trapped nerve or summat. I'm bored now, spent the broadside of the day playing StarOcean, the game that proves Enix killed Square. Kinda fun but Predictable and annoying more often than not. also some parts are ridiculous, you have to repeat yourself so many times to achieve nothing in particular, and not in a good way... in more of a "if you don't get it right this time I swear I'll rip out your Spleen" kinda way...
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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
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| Subject: | Home |
| Time: | 11:31 pm. |
| Mood: | happy. | | Music: | nothing My computer keeps Playing S**t. |
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Thank God tomorrow i Get to go home, Yes I do have to sit through 5 hours of glorious train journey.
And yes i Do have to start at the hotel on monday probably,
But there is food at home... and warmth, and family.
I haven't seen anyone since September, and i think it's safe to say for the first time I'm actually somewhat homesick,
I miss all of them, And i get to surprise my sisters tomorrow, they don't Know I'm coming back.
also get to see the Entire Brice Family on Sunday. Something i haven't done for an age... i think one of my cousins has a son now..
I'm so out of touch.
Also Looking Back it appears I was Optomistic... The things I've seen... never again, at least with pesemism you're not likely to be surprised when the shit hits the fan... what was i thinking...
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Sunday, November 27th, 2005
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Well There's the entire first series of A bit of Fry And Laurie watched, and almost everything in The Movies Unlocked, and I'm bored, and cold to boot, I need a job, or a better hobby.
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Thursday, November 24th, 2005
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Not long finished the demo of Final fantasy 12, beautiful graphics and dead smooth gameplay, but I'm concerned
the Gameplay seemed somewhat similar to Crystal Chronicles, which to be frank, was awful
The demo isn't very big, there are 2 "stages" one with wait, and the other active,
Definately needed instructions though as for some reason i couldn't use any summons,
The spells are all beautiful but there is Limited control over two of the three characters, i couldn't find a menu either
Hopefully a world built round it when its released, and not hte world of X either, the Wait map was somewhat reminiscant of Besaid
so far a 3 of 5, but I'll get it anyways, just for the namew if nothing else
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Thursday, November 17th, 2005
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Gaagh, my desk is dominated by Evil Little lego men bastards, I decided to finally start my Project, being as now there are two more for me to do, I probably should have taken heed and not left it to the last moment, well i think i have about 20 seconds of really low quality footage done, i ay give up and play with perspective shots and Go with a series of posters instead of a damn animation, my Writing skills, although still fairly poor, seem to have bigger plans than my animation skills, i came up with a 2 page script (yeah i know tonnes and tonnes, its an acomplishment for me anyway) and this 20 secs of animation, if i make it full script length i'm likely to kill anyone who watches it With boredom, And to top it off my computer decided to throw the most cacophonous (sue me fer the spelling!) Song it possibly could and i amlost ended up on the floor, and then of course theres the numb hands and feet thing, this house hold no heat... i need a beer, it's just turned 1 in the afternoon.
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Monday, November 7th, 2005
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Ah.. the joy of having summat to do, still no work, but back in Uni so less free time to mope
Plus I finally achieved a decent grade for summat, only took a few hours, and summat i was introduced to for the first time
Effort...possibly worth it, Give me a few weeks and i may of changed my mind
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Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
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Christ has My life slowed down. Been a good 6 months since i've even looked here.
To be honest i never saw the point. now i've nothing better to do,
Books are becoming dull, tvs all the same, games are all done, and work is non - existant.
I need something to do, but i haven't the imagination to come up with anything,
Its only the second day of my week off, and i feel like it's the end of the summer holidays from school.
No one wants go go out, and to be honest i can't afford it, but i wanna find that sweet oblivion again.
Its not the same alone, In fact thats even more depressing, Don't worry i haven't sunk that far yet.
I can't remember when i last genuinely smiled, Possibly the chance encounter.
Lots of falsities as ever.
I NEED A LIFE AGAIN.
i almost miss the old one
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Sunday, February 13th, 2005
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so here we are an update... i'm dull and ther's not much more to say so :P i'll update again in a few months
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Friday, October 1st, 2004
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Don't expect another one soon, I'm catching up so i thought i'd start here, I'm getting back to the old games, but i've lost many of my comic addys... i need suggestions, leave many, all i have atm is megatokyo, gaming guardians and nuklear power...or 8-bit theatre..oh and i've forgotten where my sig is from...help meh!!
Beware the asbestos moose, he is everywhere
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Saturday, June 26th, 2004
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goddammit, i have wasted most of today trying to get my damn laptop to work, it randomly turns itself off every now and again maybe I've over charged the battery, but i thought it was a virus and have hence formatted the hard drive TWICE and re-installed it twice too, I've lost all my old work, my music and all the other random art i had before. It's a damn tradgedy, i have to re-install a big bunch of my favorite stuff and try to remember the links to the cool sites... well I'm gonna try to get norton to scan without crashing, wish me luck...I'm gonna need it
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Aha, an Update, just what no-one expected, it's just here to say i have wasted another year, it all started well, but i got bored as per usual, and all work has gone to shit... as per usual, this occurs to me now when i have a pair of exams in just under 8 hours...and i haven't really revised for either, Did you like the house then anna??
I spent most of today attacking, i mean, fixing my bike... it should work fine now... hopefully, it was unbelievably humid though so i probably lost a few Kg in water in the few overly stressful hours of repairs, Do you have any clue as to how akward it is to put a fresh, newly greased chain onto a bike?? lemme tell you, IT IS HELL
I'm done with my rant so goodnight, don't hold your breath the next entry may not be for weeks
[Insert witty and/or profound statement here
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Saturday, April 24th, 2004
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So it's 3:09am and I'm not even vaguely tired, wtf is goin on here? Kill Bill2 i think was better than the first, and some parts were pure cheese, i thought I'd update, properly this time, not much else to say other than stalkers need castration with blunt and rusty implements
never underestimate the power of rage
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